2012 The Movie

The new Hollywood movie entitled 2012 is scheduled to come out Friday the 13th. From what I have seen of the trailer... it is a typical end of the world scenario with incredible special effects. Probably worth seeing on that account. But only on that account.

While it may reflect effects caused by earth changes due global warming, sun spots or electro-magnetic shifts, it is certainly not the whole story ... not the most important part of the story.

The ancient Maya said we were in the 4th world, the Aztecs, the fifth. Both wrote about 'ends of the world' in terms of cataclysm, flood, fire etc. This movie shows all of that.

Personally, I have always known that the world would end in my lifetime. As a child growing up in the 50s I was accustomed to those nuclear drills where you 'duck and cover' under your desk. Ask an extremely intelligent child (you might ask... what happened?), I knew this would not save me or anyone

When I got a little older I realized that the end of the world was more like the end of a type of consciousness. I knew we would not blow ourselves up, because the imminent possibility of doing so would usher in a change of mind as I called it then. I was right.

People have changed a lot since 1960. The whole planet has changed a lot since 1960.

The important part of the story, whether we see an apocalyptic end of the world or not is usually left out. Because it is the hardest part - self transformation. It is so hard for people to change. Do you actually think we can do what has to be done to stop the cascading effects already put in motion on this planet, in time to save the Earth? It took hundreds of years to do the damage, which some say began when we started growing our own food - tilling the soil, changing the natural order. Even if everyone you know (who is probably at least as enlightened as you are, right?) stopped all destructive activities right now... what about all the millions nay billions, who are just dying to start doing them? such driving cars, having the modern lifestyle. with all the gadgets and products. Just the magnitude of plastic floating on the surface of the planet is enough to kill us all. When I was in Morocco a couple of years ago, the landscape was so filled with black plastic bags, it looked like flocks of blackbirds. I heard on KPFA the other day that all the plastic that has ever been created since the 30s is still here.

Okay, so we are facing destruction due to environmental degradation. Maybe we can fix it, maybe we can't. But it seems to me that this is ultimately not the real point. it is about inner transformation

People who know nothing about Islam, throw the word jihad around like 'cool' or 'hot'. Many Muslims don't understand what it is. The Qur'an speaks of two types of jihad. The little jihad, where you struggle with external enemies - 'enemies on the outside' like having a war, for example. The Great Jihad, and the one almost everyone avoids.. is the one where you struggle against yourself in a process of purification and transformation. Trying to be a good human being. Working at being your best - which includes having compassion, forgiveness, love, acceptance - values all religions have at their core. This much harder and it must be done one moment to the next, over and over again; it must be sustained.

As we are distracted by movies such as 2012, end of the world, apocalyptic cataclysms, those who are on the 'little jihad,' fight the outer battles, blame others for their problems and seek to 'destroy' them, when the real work is on oneself. Movies such as this one entertain us, scare us, and maybe make us wonder, but... they do nothing to move us along our real journey, which is to transform into beings of light. We are distracted by the ephemera of appearances. not seeing what is real.

The world ends everyday. We die everyday. We are reborn everyday too. Do you know for sure that when you go to sleep you will wake up? Do you know for sure when you wake up you are the same person who went to sleep? How do you know? External clues, relationships etc. But what if all those contexts and referents were gone? How would you know that you even exist?

Scary huh? actually scarier than a movie like 2012. That's why we avoid the Great Jihad - the work of inner transformation, in favor of the little jihad externalizing things. Easier to watch death and destruction than to build a soul.

Here's the link for 2012 The Official Movie Site. See you at the movies. But will I see you on the pilgrimage? in the ashram? at the retreat? Are you willing to do the inner work? Do you want to?

These are the questions that movies like this fail to address and so for me they are 'eye candy' Interesting, but not useful

2012 Official Movie Site.

Conference in Cancun January 22-24

John Major Jenkins has a new book out and I have been trying to find where I can buy it. Went to his website and learned about this upcoming conference in Cancun, Mexico that sounds like it is not to be missed.

Put on by The Prophets Conference, 2012 Tipping Point will feature Jose Arguelles, Stanislov Grof, John Major Jenkins, Graham Hancock and others.

Here's what they have to say about the conference:

2012 will be here before we know it, and what is going to happen? To quote Dan Brown (author of the Da Vinci Code) from his just released book, The Lost Symbol...

“For millennia, mankind had wandered in the darkness…but now, as had been prophesied, there was a change coming. After hurtling blindly through history, mankind has reached a crossroads. This moment had been predicted long ago, prophesied by the ancient texts, by the primeval calendars, and even by the stars themselves. The date was specific, its arrival imminent. It would be preceded by a brilliant explosion of knowledge…a flash of clarity to illuminate the darkness and give mankind a final chance to veer away from the abyss and take the path of wisdom.”

2012 TIPPING POINT: THE PROPHETS CONFERENCE CANCUN, taking place 22-24 January 2010, and followed by a 4-day sacred Mayan temple tour, is bringing together the leading researchers to explore this global transformation. Come to Cancun and share your questions and visions.

Study Mayan Hieroglyphs in 2010!

This coming spring semester of 2010, you have two opportunities to take my class on Maya Hieroglyphs, the Calendar and 2012. Starting in March at San Joaquin Delta College in Stockton, CA then in April at Santa Rosa Junior College. You can register online, in person, or by phone. The courses will not appear on the website until the registration period begins for Spring 2010, so don't go there now.

This is a 6 week class where you will to read what the Maya actually wrote about 'period endings'. Hands-on exercises will lead you through the decipherment process and provide you with strategies for viewing any text with increased understanding.

Students are surprised at how much they can learn in just 6 weeks. I will put you through your paces in this class. I am effectively putting a whole semester into 12 hours. But... that semester in a university would cost you thousands of dollars and you could not even take the class unless you were a student in an academic program. Since my course is offered through Community Education, anyone can take the class and it is affordable.

My years of experience teaching anthropology, linguistics, and ESL, as well as working in State and Federal government as an information specialist, tour guide and researcher, have honed my skills at communicating complex and unfamiliar information.

I live in Sonoma County, but I will be in Stockton the day before and day after class each week during the 6 weeks of the course. If you want to arrange for a flower essence consultation, a Galactic Center reading or an astrology reading, contact me to schedule by leaving a comment at the end of this post, with your contact info and I will email or telephone you.

I have the academic training...with degrees in anthropology, linguistics, I also worked on a doctorate in Mayan Studies at Tulane University and intuitive/spiritual training...plant spirit healing, flower essences, astrology, Sufism, meditation and other spiritual practices. I easily cross the bridge integrating and synthesizing from many dimensions.

Still Here...

In case you thought I had ascended and was no longer
here...

Ha! ha! Right.

So many changes and things to deal with... I just have not felt like writing. I'll begin with the following which was written over a month ago, but still applies.

Lately I spend a lot of time playing computer games, especially through Facebook, where you can create many different kinds of worlds. I say I will only play for an hour, and then find 8 hours have gone by (or more).I have felt uninterested in doing much else. It seems that every time I try to 'do' something in the 'real' world, it fails or does not get off the ground, yet I am a 'millionaire' in these games. True, I am still sad over the death of my cat Grace, worried over my finances, and still recovering from the ankle I broke in May. I have been allowing myself to just while away the time, sensing that this just a phase and it will pass.

At first, I was concerned about myself. Was I totally losing it? Wasting so much time, accomplishing nothing. But I saw that most people 'waste' a lot of time. That in fact, ultimately, almost everything we do is a waste of time. What 'real' value is there in 'work'? I thought about this a lot. The only thing I found to be of value is helping others. But then, even that turns out to be useless to some extent. It just seems better because it appears to be self-less.

I really started looking at other people's lives and saw that most people have a certain amount of leisure time which they waste in front of a T.V. or some such dulling activity.

Even though I live in the country, there is a state highway that goes out to the ocean next to my property. I can see it from where I sit playing my games. Every morning and evening the 'rush hour' as they go to and from work. On Friday and Sunday nights a steady stream of campers, RVs and motorcycles as they go to 'have fun'. Yet what is the purpose and meaning of all this activity? Make enough money to live and to have fun on your free time. All that driving back and forth. While I am totally content right here, neither coming nor going - just being here.

I saw that millions of people all over the world play these games and that one can 'communicate' with people this way. You give each other gifts of all kinds and there is sense of community. It is amazing how I have begun to feel affection for these strangers based on the 'hearts' they send or the consistency with which they attend to their virtual farms.

Then one night it occurred to me that in fact, creating and living in the virtual worlds of games is preparation for living in a non-material reality.

There is a lot written about the power of the creative imagination. All that humans have created, began in their minds. Every invention began as a thought and thus on the energetic level. It is also said that the level of existence will be totally on the level of energy. Perhaps these virtual worlds are parallel realities, like our dream world. Learning to work within these virtual worlds may be like mastering lucid dreaming. Perhaps there is a 'bleed through effect'.

I will say this, after years of wishing for a particular change in my herbal products business, I literally got my wish one night. At the moment it happened, it felt like I had just hit the 'Enter' button on a newly created universe. I had been thinking about something I wanted to occur in my company and one night 'out of the blue' I got just what I wanted.

I realized I had imagined it for 2 years. And I had decided that I would not 'look' for the opportunity. That for me to know it was the right thing to do, someone had to ask me rather than me trying to sell it to them. And it happened.

In fact, the only things that 'work' these days are things that I do not seek myself. They are all gifts from the Universe. Whatever I try to initiate myself, fails or has to be recalled.

I was all set to go to the Resonance Project training with Nassim Haramein this weekend in Joshua Tree. I was really looking forward to it, but my financial situation got so bad that I had to cancel. I am quite disappointed.

It was a year ago (over Halloween weekend) that I went to the Shift by the Bay 2012 Conference in San Francisco and my whole life changed.

Now I am teaching Mayan Hieroglyphs, the Calendar and 2012... Spring semester 2010 in two locations... Santa Rosa Junior College and Delta College in Stockton.

I have continued reading every book I can find on 2012 no matter how strange, so I can see what others are thinking about it. I am also getting deeper into my own research.

I am studying glyphs related to portals.

I discovered an incredible book, that was published in 1991, but had never heard of before. From the Mouth of the Dark Cave is a study of ritual use of caves and the associated iconography. Caves are considered portals to the Underworld. The gods are born from and live in caves. The author has shown how rituals depicted on stelae actually took place in caves.

Preparing for Ascension

We are in the midst of a huge paradigm shift. It is affecting all major areas of life. An amazing film that shows how the new physics is affecting the field of medicine is The Living Matrix.

It demonstrates how fields outside our bodies affect our health. Health is a relationship between inner and outer - another level of 'as above, so below.' The heart is the major organ of perception and the brain follows. The body responds last.

Our system of medicine works on the slowest level - the body. Psychology works at the next slowest level - the mind. No wonder it takes people so long to heal.

The portal that we entered a few years ago, which will climax with the completion of the 13th baktun and coincide with the Solstice of December 21, 2012, will provide an opportunity for many to 'ascend' to the next level.

What this will look like 'on the ground' I am not sure. I do feel that in some way, it will look like a judgement day in the sense that 'the sheep will be separated from the goats.' But it has nothing to do with judgement by an outside force (God). Those who judge themselves will condemn themselves. This is what I believe.

Emotional healing is key component to the 'ascension' process as it is to optimal functioning at any level. As I move about in the world, I sense that many if not most people are suffering deep emotional wounds of one sort or another. Trauma has many causes. It may serve a higher purpose however, which is to force us to 'wake up.' My experience shows me that most people learn through pain rather than through the other major modality - pleasure. When we are in deep pain and not 'medicating' through escape behavior - and we decide we want to do something about it - this is the first step. (It can be equated to the 12 steps). When we realize that our lives are unmanageable because of what our pain has made us do or not do (self-sabotage for example), then we can address the causes of the pain and removing that imprint from our being.

We are being offered so many modalities for emotional healing right now. There is no reason to continue to suffer or be caught in addiction. This film shows many new methods. One that I am looking into is Thought Field Therapy. It looks a lot like Emotional Freedom Technique working with the energy meridians by tapping on them in a particular sequence and pattern. I am fascinated with the whole concept.

While this idea is new and is related to the New Physics, traditional cultures may have referred to this field as a ghost, demonic possession, spirit companion, etc. that hovers just beyond or even inside one's aura. Now we see this as a thought field that can be modified.

How is Country-western Music Like Sufism?

When I was a child, my mother liked to listen to country-western music (as well as many other genres). I hated it. She told me "some day you will love it." I didn't believe her. But... it was true. After I had my heart broken a few times, suffered, cried myself to sleep over love, I got it. To really like country-western music, unless you grew up with it, you have to have suffered a broken heart. Read on to see how that is like Sufism.

Just finished reading Serpent of Light: Beyond 2012 by Drunvalo Melchizedek. I have to admit I have been avoiding this one because I thought it was too far out. But since I am reading everything on the subject, I knew I would have to read it eventually. (Hmmm kind of like country-western music)

What I found was one of the books that may not necessarily be 'true' on the level of the intellectual mind, but does have a huge 'inexplicable' effect on the heart and psyche.

For one thing, I had a hard time putting it down. It was compelling. For another, ever since I started reading it, it has been affecting me at a deep level. I can feel something shifting in me.

When I read a book like this I know that there is a level of 'truth' to it that is beyond the intellectual way of thinking. In fact, I can still hear myself saying 'Oh come on...'. Meanwhile I find myself in tears for no reason or finally understanding the difficulty I am having working with the public lately.

Now that I can leave the house, drive and walk, I don't want to be 'in the world' at all. This has been a disturbing recent development. But after reading Drunvalo's book, I had an inspiration concerning what is happening to me and why I am so sensitive to energy.

This is coming forth right now because of this eclipse we are in. I feel a strong desire to re-connect (in a different way) with the Sufi path I have been on (with some detours) for the past 15 years. It has been referred to as the path for those with a broken heart.

The timing of completing the book, the eclipse, working at the County Fair and seeing my teacher's face is perfect. Of course. And once again, The Galactic Alignment is not only occurring out there in the sky. It is occurring in our heart.

Nassim Haramein says there are black holes at all levels of existence. At the level of the human body, the black hole is in our heart. This is the place of creation. Drunvalo says the same thing in this book. And... the Maya say the same thing. The Dark Rift is also the ultimate place of creation/recreation. Death, Birth, Rebirth.

Teachings For Cycle Endings

For all of my European readers, Nassim Haramein will be with you in August. I highly recommend that you go to one of his presentations if you can.

He will be giving public talks in Europe in August. He will be appearing in Belgium the week of August 3, Spain the week of August 8, Germany soon after, the UK the week of August 15, and the Netherlands on August 21 and 22. More specific details will be announced soon. Go to The Resonance Project website.

Nassim Haramein will be appearing live in the Watford area of London on Thursday, August 13, 2009 from 12:30PM - 4:30PM (GMT) at the Park Inn Watford.

I first heard about his ideas from one of his emissaries who spoke in Sebastopol, CA in conjunction with Daniel Pinchbeck. After that, I watched some of the videos on YouTube and purchased a DVD.

While I have not seen nor heard all that is available by him, what I have seen is truly amazing and his so much to do with what we are beginning to experience vis a vis 2012 and the Galactic Alignment.

I have signed up for his training in Joshua Tree, Halloween weekend.

Meanwhile my own research on ancient Mayan ideas related to portals is deepening. There has not yet been a sufficient explanation of either the origins of Mayan cultural developments such as the calendar or writing system, or the 'collapse' of the culture and the subsequent decline. Perhaps the 'itzers' left through the portals/wormholes from whence they originally came. Perhaps, having seeded a particular element in consciousness that would resurface now, they were free to move on to their next 'assignment.'

Jenkins says the monuments at Izapa have instructions for those who live at cycle endings - us. Of course, I wish he would spell it out a little better for the denser ones among us - like me.

I feel I am having to piece together information gathered from many sources, then, trusting in my own intuition, come up with an understanding.

As above, so below, with Pluto at the beginning of Capricorn, all structures are either collapsing or in dire need of transformation. We simply cannot go back to things as they were, even if we could. In order for humanity to evolve to the next level, everything has to be redesigned. See my astrology blog.

Haramein's ideas are a crucial part of understanding what is occurring and it's significance.